My parents weren’t ever there for me emotionally. I grew up feeling very unloved, and there are issues to this day that have created rifts in my relationship with my parents. It makes me sad…I certainly don’t want to NOT have my parents in my life. I’ve finally been pushed to a point where I’m done letting things slide, I stand up for myself and I stand up for what’s right. I’ve been wanting to stand up for myself to my parents for as long as I can remember, and I am SO THANKFUL that I’ve finally done it. I’m still hoping the outcome changes and fences can be mended.
The best part is that this change has brought around a sense of peace that grows more and more everyday. I’m not constantly stressed out about whatever is going on at any given moment, I’m not always fighting back the words that were trying to hard to escape my lips. I’ve said everything I wanted to say, which has allowed me to let go of that anger. It happened slowly…but recently I spent an hour at my mother’s house while Andrew set up a computer we brought over for them, and we small talked the whole time. I left knowing nothing had changed between us, I was still sticking to my guns on our issues, but also knowing that I’m not angry anymore. I’ve said what I needed to say, and that’s all I can do. I am 100% sure that I did the right thing, I can FEEL it. It has since encouraged me, and Andrew as well, to do the right thing in tough situations where our first instinct might be to do something else.
My husband and I are a team. We stand up for ourselves and each other to family or with any other problems that come our way. I got that from my parents, in a weird way, they pushed me to the point where I finally took a stand. It took a couple of decades, but I’ve finally come through on the other side of pain and anger and resentment. And I am so thankful for that.
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